How many times do I say that with a shrug and a feeling like I'm just not doing anything? I am not a bold person. I do not storm gates. I do not tell people like it is. I do not go in with guns blazing or let someone have it. Sometimes that is a fault. Sometimes that saves me from mistakes. But sometimes you just want to fix something and you can't. In my lack of worldly boldness I often (always) turn to prayer. I've come to a point where I don't feel in any way, like my prayers are just begging and whining to God to give me results. I really feel like I'm standing in the gap. Like I'm being an intercessor. In my reading and studying about prayer, I've learned the words of warrior prayers. Of spiritual warfare prayer. Of powerful intercessor, casting out evil kind of prayer. And only scratching the surface at that. I am not a person who often (if ever) volunteers to pray out loud at Bible study, but in the privacy of my home I speak boldly, loudly before God and call on the name of Jesus in a way that would make people wonder who I am. And so I do that now for a situation that is in my heart. I do it every time I think of it. Not always loudly of course. That wouldn't always work. Like while I'm falling asleep at night or serving snack at preschool. I have lots to learn about prayer. When I'm thinking about something that I want changed or am in a situation in which I am physically powerless to do anything, I'll find myself thinking those helpless thoughts of "all I can do is pray". I feel embarrassed that I'm not doing something more. Wondering if I'm just being lazy or timid and avoiding doing the actions of love and......action. I feel a bit hesitant to even tell someone I'm praying for them because I don't want it to sound inactive or useless or lazy or cliche.
But I gotta just fall back on my belief that there is huge power in prayer. Huge. I'm believing in God that prayer will open the prison doors. That guarding angels will be sent in multitudes. That God's spirit of power and love and a sound mind will triumph over every fear in every way.
The Bible says that the prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective. And I'm counting on it.